The Writerly Habit

This blog is about my struggles to get into the habit of writing regularly.

The Good Christian

I wrote this during a writing session this morning. I haven't edited or rewritten it so please be nice. :)

The Good Christian

I try to be good, I really do, but whenever I am around him, a deep lustful hunger consumes me. It's a need to feel our bodies connect. I plan on resisting, but with a few deep kisses I feel my body yielding. The center of me, my feminine core, pulls toward him; aches to feel him inside of me. I am no longer thinking of what is pleasing to my God. I am an animal, my biology controls me, not my thoughts or well wishes. You'd think I'd feel guilty afterwards, but I don't. It's a primal instinct that can't help but rejoice once it's satiated.

Here we go again

So I'm moving out of my house for a little while and I'm going to stay with my parents. It will allow me to finally finish my English degree. I'm taking Intro to Lit and English Comp II. I start in two weeks and I can't wait. Sadly, they weren't offering creative writing, non-fiction, or poetry classes at a time I can attend. They're usually only offered in the evenings since a lot of members of the public (non-students) take them.

I also decided that I would try and start writing seriously again. I bought a new notebook at Borders. Hot pink noto-journal by Paper Chase. I love the noto-journals. That's what I do each time I decide I'm going to really try...I buy a new blank book that never gets more than a third full. I feel better about it this time though. College helps keep me on track. My Dad is a great fantasy writer, but he has the same problem I do. He seldom sits down to write. We made a deal yesterday...every morning, after breakfast, we would sit down for a writings session. It went pretty well but I had a lot of trouble beginning. I had no idea what to write. I'm always pushing myself to write a novel and I'm not sure why. Maybe because that's what everyone expects out of a writer. My strong suit is actually flash fiction, anything under 1,000 words. I actually managed to write a piece during our session this morning. You can read it in the next post. Please be kind, it was written in one sitting and has not been edited.

2007 Literary Deaths

A.I. Bezzerides, 98. Film noir screenwriter ("Kiss Me Deadly.") Jan. 1.

Tillie Olsen, 94. Influential feminist author ("Tell Me a Riddle.") Jan. 1.

Robert Anton Wilson, 74. Co-author of science fiction cult classic "The Illuminatus! Trilogy." Jan. 11.

Art Buchwald, 81. Pulitzer-winning Washington humorist; battled Hollywood over movie "Coming to America." Jan. 17.

Peter Tompkins, 87. Wrote best-sellers such as "The Secret Life of Plants." Jan. 24.

Bob Carroll Jr., 87. TV writer for Lucille Ball's shows. Jan. 27.

Sidney Sheldon, 89. Stage, screen writer turned best-selling novelist ("The Other Side of Midnight.") Jan. 30.

Molly Ivins, 62. Best-selling author and columnist, a sharp-witted liberal who referred to President Bush as "Shrub." Jan. 31.

Marianne Fredriksson, 79. One of Sweden's most admired writers ("Hanna's Daughters.") Feb. 11.

Lothar-Guenther Buchheim, 89. German author; wrote autobiographical novel "Das Boot." Feb. 22.

Henri Troyat, 95. One of France's most prolific and respected authors. March 2.

Marjabelle Young Stewart, 82. Etiquette authority; co-wrote "White Gloves and Party Manners." March 3.

Stan Daniels, 72. Emmy-winning TV writer and producer ("The Mary Tyler Moore Show," "Taxi.")

Kurt Vonnegut, 84. Novelist who captured the absurdity of the world in darkly humorous works such as "Slaughterhouse-Five." April 11.

David Halberstam, 73. Journalist whose acclaimed books included towering study of Vietnam War, poignant portrait of aging baseball stars. April 23.

Bernard Gordon, 88. Screenwriter, blacklisted in the 1950s. ("55 Days at Peking.") May 11.

Lloyd Alexander, 83. Children's book author ("The Chronicles of Prydain.") May 17.

Mark Harris, 84. Novelist ("Bang the Drum Slowly.") May 30.

William Meredith, 88. Pulitzer Prize-winning poet ("Partial Accounts: New and Selected Poems.") May 30.

Nazek al-Malaika, 85. Iraqi poet; used free verse rather than classical rhyme. June 20.

Fred T. Saberhagen, 77. Science fiction and fantasy writer ("Berserker" series.) June 29.

Kathleen E. Woodiwiss, 68. Pioneer of modern historical romance novel ("The Flame and the Flower.") July 6.

John Graham, 80. Children's book author ("I Love You, Mouse.") July 16.

Sekou Sundiata, 58. Poet, recording artist ("The Blue Oneness of Dreams"). July 18.

George Tabori, 93. Avant-garde playwright-director in postwar Germany ("Goldberg Variations.") July 23.

Mel Shavelson, 90. Screenwriter-director twice nominated for best-screenplay Oscars ("The Seven Little Foys," "Houseboat.") Aug. 8.

Grace Paley, 84. Acclaimed poet and short story writer. Aug. 22.

Edward Seidensticker, 86. Scholar of Japanese literature; translated the epic "Tale of Genji." Aug. 26.

Madeleine L'Engle, 88. Author who captivated schoolchildren with "A Wrinkle in Time." Sept. 6.

Robert Jordan, 58. Author of "Wheel of Time" fantasy novels. Sept. 16. Blood disease.

Charles Griffith, 77. Wrote screenplay for "Little Shop of Horrors." Sept. 28.

Peg Bracken, 89. Wrote hugely popular "I Hate to Cook Book." Oct. 20.

Ira Levin, 78. Best-selling novelist ("Rosemary's Baby," "The Boys From Brazil.") Nov. 12.

Mel Tolkin, 94. Head writer for Sid Caesar's "Your Show of Shows." Nov. 26.

Elizabeth Hardwick, 91. Leading intellectual author ("Sleepless Nights") and critic. Dec. 2.

Diane Middlebrook, 68. Wrote acclaimed biographies of poets Anne Sexton, Sylvia Plath. Dec. 15.

Julien Gracq, 97. Celebrated French surrealist writer. Dec. 22.

Writer's Strike and Other News

Hey kiddies. It's been a long time since my last post. I stopped writing around the time of the writer's strike and guess what? It isn't over yet. Now the loss of salary to the writers has exceeded what they hoped to gain in negotiations. I think it was about $157 million. I just got frustrated by the fact that (at least according to an article I read) these writers make over $100,000 a year and are asking for more. Maybe that figure was wrong, if anyone knows what it truly is shoot me an email. Here I am struggling to make $27,000 a year as a call center supervisor and they complain about their six figure income? It just doesn't seem right to me. I know they're feeling the pinch now and I feel for them there, it's just really hard for me to empathize on the salary bit. How's that for honesty?

In other news, purchase J.K. Rowling's handwritten book The Tales of Beedle the Bard for a staggering $4 million dollars. The proceeds went to The Children's Voice Campaign. Hard to believe, her success is absolutely phenomenal. I think it's really great when someone comes up out of nothing...but hey give someone else a turn. :P

Ok, so I started NaNoWriMo and after the first day or two I quit. I just wasn't in the right mindset to do it. I was just staring at the paper and couldn't think of anything. I think the big problem was that I started off with a non-fiction book. Ah well, there's always next year. I have registered for college and will be starting in a couple of weeks. I am taking Intro to Lit and English Comp II. I can't wait. School has a way of keeping me on track with my writing. They didn't have fiction writing at a time that fit my schedule this semester. It's a shame.

My new year's resolution is to write at least once a week and not beat myself up or think I'm a failure for not doing it.